A Little Milestone

One of my drawings for #mesassaedraws project

Finally, I have time to post another blog :) No, I'm not neglecting my blog. I've tried several times to put my ass down on the seat and start blogging, but apparently 24 hours a day is not enough. I have too much schedule in my hands, so I have to choose my priorities.
And I am so proud of myself that I'm able to keep my commitment for 2 weeks straight until this day. Maybe for you guys 2 weeks is not that great, but for me, it is kind of like a miracle. I'm not a determined person, so it was very hard for me to keep on track with the schedule I made. I could be very strong-willed at one day and don't give a f*** on the next day. It was very hard to have such habit. Thus, I decided to change.
I have exercised, learned Mandarin and Spanish language until now. Those three activities are my priority right now, and I managed to keep on track so far. I've promised to myself that if I could keep my schedule until the end of July, I will by myself a violin - which I've longed for so long.
Violin is also one of the things that I neglected. My parents was kind enough to bought me a violin and put me on a lesson, but I gave up just like that. Hence, my violin became rusty. Put that aside, I actually still in love with violin and willing to give it another shot. So yeah, If I could keep my commitment for 30 days, I will be confident enough to make another commitment and buy a violin.

On another note, I'm also still running my instagram account @mesassae. I post poems on weekdays and drawings on weekends. It's quite hard because recently I haven't got that much of inspirations, but I am still trying to post something new every day. I don't know, I just thought that with creating that instagram account, I can finally find my old-self again.

#mesassaedraws project

A request from my friend on IG

So yeah, that is a little milestone for me and I am quite proud. I am trying to do more and more things in the near future. I realized that learning something new each day is fun and it is keeping me excited for the rest of the day.

How about you guys? any little milestone in the beginning of this month? :) - sassae

An Endless Scary Thoughts

Instagram: @mesassae

My Endless Dream
Last night, I had scary dreams. I was chased, but not chased by a monster or ghost or such, yet by "time". I dreamed a moment when I was late for work without noticing, and late to study for my test in college. An ordinary real life setting, but it made me shudder and sweating so bad when I woke up.

Weird dream, I suppose. I told my significant other that he doesn't dream that much, more like he never had a dream. Me, I dream almost everyday. Romance, mystery, comedy kind of dream - you name it.

Today's Highlights
Okay, let see.. today was not extraordinary. I hurt my brain, yes, but not because of a the load of work; more because of I didn't really have a work to do - or, I just don't know what to do. I don't work in a place where everything have been defined from A-Z. I have to define it myself and take the initiative. and only God knows how hard it turns out to be. Working is really different than being in college. In college, you screw up and learn. At work, you screw up and feel guilty for the rest of your life (okay, I am exaggerating. Maybe for a week or so.)
Now, I am more excited towards my life after work. I can exercise, and learn things that I like to learn - languages. It's exciting, but it takes a lot of my time, so I have to manage carefully. Well, I won't be able to guess my future, but I will just do my best so at least I can learn something each and every day.

I hope you guys have a great day :)

- Sassae

A Late New Year Resolution

One of my short poems on Instagram: @mesassae

People don't usually start doing their new year resolution in the middle of the year, but well, better late than never (don't you think? :D )

I admit, I actually have written all of my new year resolution from last year's December. But as always, I procrastinated. I was lazy, unmotivated, and lack of passion. I used to think that everything will be just fine and change for the better itself.

But you know what, I started to re-think all of my decisions. No, nothing will change if I do things the same way over and over again. Nothing will get better, because just be real here - life is not that good. Hence, I need to change.

That is why I've made my new year resolution all over again:

1. Going back to writing
Yes, I like to write. Pretty much anything - poems, stories, etc. But since I got into college, I haven't write anything again. Well, something slapped me in the face and shouted that I had to do this and become a person who not only live for work, but also do something else that matters.
Thus, I am now writing short poems on Instagram @mesassae (kindly follow, read my poems, and tell me what you think!) :D
However, in all honesty, there is something that I've always wanted to do - write something that able to make people smile. I see a lot of people fall into depression and self harm, and I really want to do something. But I can only write, so I will use my passion to make them feel a little bit better :)
Besides writing poems, I also want to try submitting my novel to a contest. The theme is "sweet romance" which is kind of my forte. The due date is on September, so.. let's just give it a shot (although I am still lacking of inspiration right now *cry*)

2. Exercise
Oh my, exercise is like my long life enemy. I've tried many many times, and I failed many many times as well. Because I just don't like exercising! I don't know if it is just me that haven't found the right exercise routine, or it is just me being lazy (ok, I'm pretty sure that the second reason is the most reasonable). But I recently feel motivated again to be more fit and healthy, so I decided to give it another try, and heck yeah! I exercised for around 20 minutes today. I will do better tomorrow and in the other days as well!

3. Learn languages
English is not my mother tongue, but I am able to write and speak in English, although my grammar can probably make my ex- English teacher cry. However, for me it is much more easier to learn English because currently, there are many platforms which I can learn from. I can watch youtube videos, read English articles, etc.
But Chinese language.. okay let's stop right here. I learned Chinese for around ten years. TEN freaking years and I still can't speak nor write properly. I stopped learning Chinese on high school, so it has already been years since then. However, Chinese language actually has intrigued me for such a long time, so I've decided to give it another try. But this time, I will learn it by myself.
Another from Chinese, I am also trying to learn Spanish as well. Languages is interesting and I am so excited. Hopefully I have enough determination to learn.

That is all for today's report! I hope that all of you are fully aware that there is no such thing as "too late" for everything. As long as you work on it, everything is possible. I believe everything happens for a reason, and everything is going to be alright.

See you on my next blog! Hoping to meet you on IG as well :)


- Sassae